Saturday, February 21, 2009
Some shared experiences?
In my first attempt, I got nowhere. But, I did see a brick wall. Not just any bricks. These were larger than our standard size red bricks I am used to. And the color was not consistent with what I might see here. I told her about this, and she responded that she lived in a brick building. Of course, anyone can be in a brick building, so that is not a significant thing by itself. After that, I saw a news feature about some drug deal in the Montreal area, and they showed a couple of brick apartment buildings. The brick looked like what I had seen. It still could just be coincidental, or that type of brick could be very common to Montreal.
The next time I tried, I felt as if I got someplace, but once there, I did not see anyone. As I was leaving again, someone placed a copy of a newspaper in my hands. I looked at it and saw it was in French. Telling her about this, she responded that her last job had been with a newspaper. Since I cannot understand French, and I am not sure I really saw a written about in the paper, I cannot know if that was a real hit. Just another coincidence.
The next try, I got someplace and saw a very sharply detailed rendition of a fish. She told me after that that her astrological sign was Pisces. She had not mentioned this before. Since I did not know the meaning of the fish, I would not have known this unless she had told me why it was significant to her.
In the next one, I found myself walking along a brilliantly colored street, almost more real than any real street could be. It was so intense, that I thought that wherever it was, I must really be there. The sun in my eyes, the sense of feeling the pavement I walked on. I was looking for CG. I turned up a sidewalk to the right, into a low knoll. People were in some sort of exercise program. I asked the apparent leader if they could point out where CG was. He pointed up towards a building a bit further away. I got to the door and asked again. The person there grabbed my shoulder and guided me through the door. As he touched me, I felt a surge in energy. I crossed into the room. There was a baby carriage on the far side of the room. I looked into it. The baby changed as I watched. It grew, and then changed faces, and grew again, changing faces every now and again. As I watched, I understood that each of these new faces had been CG at a certain point in her existence over time. It ended with the current version. At this point, I hugged her, and the experience ended. As I recall, I did not discuss the details of this one in much with her. Maybe it would have been too much to tell her. It went out of bounds of something we had agreed to.
Now, the best two.
The experience started with me landing in a forested area. There is a house to my right. I walk up along the front of the house, and there is that same guy from the earlier experience. I should have mentioned that CG felt that she had two people protecting her spiritually, and one was a man. Anyway, I walked up to this guy and asked if I could see CG. Again, he grabbed my arm, and I feel a surge in energy. I went in the direction he pointed, and I saw CG up ahead of me. She called to me by a name that is not my current name, saying ‘great, (un-remembered name) you made it.’ As I approached her, she had been sitting on the steps to the front door of the house. She had a Garfield book in her left hand. She told me later that she does not like Garfield. But, I am thinking that somewhere along the line, her daughter will want one. After we said hello, she suggested that we should take a walk out into the woods away from the house. There was a path. We walked and talked about our lives. I think she asked me about people in my life, and I answered her relating the hair color of a significant person in my life. We walked a bit more, and then I felt as if I had to get back. I told her I had to go and asked her if she would remember that I had been there. She answered ‘probably not.’ I kissed her goodbye.
And, it was over. I noted the time it ended and asked in the next email if she had anything to tell me. She said that at a particular time, close to what I had said, she had awakened from a dream that she knew would be significant to me. She wrote of being in a tower with someone. She said I had been there, and that I had complained about the length of the hair of the lady I was with, saying it was messy. I do not remember complaining about hair, since I have always liked long hair on women. It was interesting that both of our experiences, even though they were not similar in setting, mentioned the hair of the person I was with at the time. I had not discussed this with CG beforehand. She sent me her version of the dream she had before I sent her mine. I did not mention the kiss. Nor did she.
CG had told me that she had a couple of ongoing physical problems related to the birth of her daughter. One day, she told me that she would be in the hospital for a week or so to get that damage repaired. I guess she had been trying to find someone to do it, and she would be covered for the medical coverage they have there. The operation was a success, and she promised she would be out rollerblading by summer. A few days later, she suffered a setback of some kind.
I did not know at the time that she had been having any problems other than normal post-surgery soreness, and probably in places she never would have mentioned to me anyway, unless we had known each other a lot better. Then, one night, I woke up out of a sound sleep. I heard the very familiar sounds that precede my OOBEs starting up. As this happened, my first thought was that CG was in some sort of trouble. At first, I was not sure what was happening, but as I traveled, I knew something had happened related to her surgery. As I traveled, I tried to send her healing energy. I am not even sure I believed that healing energy stuff then, but at the time, it seemed like the thing to do. I actually saw light streaming out from me, and I knew I was directing it towards her as I traveled. I also felt as if I was not alone, almost as if I had been summoned by someone on her behalf. Then, I had the oddest sensation- if anything can really feel odd after the sensation of traveling 3,000 or more miles in a matter of minutes.
I saw the top of a curtain much like you would see in a hospital- the kind that they will pull around your bed to give you privacy. At the same time, I was seeing that, I was seeing a bed in a room someplace else. I plunked down on the foot of a bed, or beds. From one, I saw a bedroom- with a large stuffed animal off to one side. As I turned to look up to the head of the bed(s), I saw the one in the bedroom with the stuffed animal was empty. I also saw the one in the hospital setting, which was not empty. I had the very briefest of glances at a person in the bed, but I was overcome with the sense of invading that person’s privacy at that particular time. It was as if, all that really was needed had been my energy. I was not to be there just to view what was happening so I could have proof later that I had been there. As soon as I looked at this person, I was gone and back home. I made note of the time.
Now, the feedback. It seemed, according to what CG later told me, that she had been in pain that night for quite some time. At some point, the friend who was looking after her during her recovery decided that she needed to be in the hospital. At the time I reported for my visit, she had just been admitted. I mentioned having seen the stuffed animal in a room someplace, and she told me her daughter had put her favorite stuffed toy in the room with her at home because she thought it would make her feel better. CG was not aware of my intrusion but was interested that I had known she was in trouble, and that I had seen the animal and the hospital. I had been confused a bit due to the overlap of rooms, but I can see if I was keying into her trauma, I may have been drawn both to where she currently was, and to where she had just been. The pain was only a brief setback, and she returned home later in the day. I am sure she was rollerblading by summer, but I never found out. Shortly after this, she stopped responding to my emails.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Do we go on After Death?
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
The Truth is Out There
Preparations were underway for a
ceremony. This involved a certain Native American in a small village. It
was like I entered the ceremonial area, and at a particular time, I then
entered the mind of that Native American. I remember a peculiar sense of
duality. I was still me. I had memories of my current life. And at the
same time, I was getting a sense of what my Native American host had been going
through. He was nervous about the ceremony. There had been a lot of
training and preparation leading up to this point, and he did not want to fail.
I was not sure why I was there. He walked over to the designated place for
the ceremony.
Suddenly, I sensed another presence in there
with us. While I generally had a sense of what my host had on his mind,
this other presence seemed foreign. I was pushed to the side a bit to make
room. The new presence then used my host to speak. I had the feeling that
this was what was desired by my host. It was expected, and I did nothing to
interfere.
After this had gone on for a while, I knew the
ceremony was near an end. Suddenly, I felt as if we were being picked up,
and carried away from the ceremonial area. The next thing I knew, we were
in very cold water. My host was not conscious, or at least not enough to
respond to this. I “yelled” at him to come out of it. I tried to make him kick
himself to the surface. Eventually, he overcame his lack of awareness and
gained control enough to swim over to the bank of the stream we had been thrown
into. He got out and looked back at a relatively still section of the
stream. I could make out the reflection. He looked down at his tightly
secured leggings and was glad they were still there since he had a bit of a
hike to go on before returning to his people. He turned to leave, walking
upstream. I remember that just before I left him, I thought to myself that
just over the ridge from this spot was the city in which I currently live, or
would be at some time.
Many years after this, I read a bit about Native
Americans in our area. This makes a bit more sense to me now. The Native
Americans of the area did have settlements in our local canyons, as well as
near town. There were a few settlements in the area that is currently a
ridge away from us. These Native Americans did wear leggings like those I
saw on my host. And, they did have shamans who did ceremonies using, what
we might refer to as mind-altering substances. This was just an
interesting experience before, but the part about knowing in it that my future
home was over the ridge from that spot seemed kind of strange. Maybe it
bothered me because I thought of that as a detail that lessened the possible
validity of the rest of the experience. I had known there had been Native
Americans around here, but not specifically where. I had not known any of
the local Native Americans would have ever had shamans or used them in
ceremonies for the benefit of the group in some way. Maybe I was more than
a visitor to this Native American. Maybe I had been him at some point
somewhere.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Denial- You Can’t Really Be Doing This
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Earlier, Still in College - Past lives?
Earlier in college and right after. . .
I laid down about a half-hour before dinner was scheduled for the
dorm one time. The second my head hit the pillow, it started. This
was very uneven and rough compared to how the vibrations had mellowed out
recently. Something different was going on here. There was a brief
pause, and then I found myself looking down at the side of railroad tracks, and
there was a lone yellow flower. At the time, I knew this flower was a favorite
of my young daughter and that she was now sick. I remember thinking that
it was good to be home, even under the circumstances. There was an epidemic. It
was still going on. I was a doctor. I had been away helping in a larger city
near us. Certain members of my family and friends there had already died, and I
was feeling a bit sick myself. I did what I could to comfort my family,
and then I was too sick to do anything for them, or myself. When this one
ended, I felt physically exhausted, and my stomach was in knots. I went
down to dinner only because I had paid for it. My appetite slowly returned. I
have not had another experience quite like that one.
Exploring with others
When I was in Forestry Summer Camp for my major, I had a tent-mate
named RH. I learned fairly early on that he had an interest in meditation, so I
brought up the possibility of using meditation to get to the state that
preceded the so-called out-of-body sensations I was interested in. He
asked me about what he might need to know, and then he said he was going to try
it.
His initial try, he told me was a success, or so he thought. It
depended on what I had to say about it. He found himself consciously traveling
while he was meditating. He figured that he should attempt to go to a
place that I would easily recognize by his description, and that would be
significant to me, and previously unknown to him. What he described
sounded exactly like a newly built church right across the street from the
triplex that JM and I were in at that point. I had thought it was an odd-looking
church and described it to JM as looking like a Sizzler Steak
restaurant. It had floor-to-ceiling windows on three sides, really overly
exaggerated rooflines, and the interior carpeting color clashed badly with the
exterior brick walkways, which was a prominent characteristic, due to the
windows meeting at ground level. He described the windows, and the fact the
building did not look like what it was, and the fact that the interior floors
did not match the exterior. Did he really go there, or did I allow him to
probe my memory for a place like that for him to describe to me? It is
hard to know.
One result of RH’s success at describing this building to me was
that he got very interested in the possibilities. We discussed whether it
would be possible to both “project” at the same time and then meet at a certain
spot and have a shared experience. The thing is, that for me, doing this had
always been a hit or miss sort of thing. I could not just decide to do it at
will. But, I attempted to set up a scenario, such that if I was successful in
having an experience, I would attempt to visit him. Over time, some of it
when we should have been doing school work, we talked of this for many hours
and had a few things happen that were interesting.
Once, I was able to have an experience at a similar time that we
had agreed to. I think we had a standing time set for every night. This
time, I was able to generate the typical sensations of an OOBE, and I traveled
across town, plunking down to a stop finally. I could not see much, but I
thought I heard snoring. He later reported that at that time, he had
planned to be there and awake to try to see me if I was able to get there. He
fell asleep. I do not count this as a “hit” though. The snoring could have
been my own. But, as I said earlier, I knew I was awake.
One time, I remember having had a dream about him in which we were
up in a park near his house. I was showing him how to generate light from my
hands and was shining my hand light up into the trees. He also had a dream
that night, in which we were up in a park, shining flashlights into the
trees. This may be interesting, but would probably be considered by most
to be just a coincidence. I accept that. Even if I still knew where
he lived, he would probably deny that this ever happened at this point. He
had moved on last time I saw him.
Before I lost touch with RH, I had one more encounter during an
OOBE. I was trying to get to him, but for some reason, I could not find
him and returned to my body. In my second attempt, I decided to go to see
his wife and find out from her where he was. I flew down in front of a huge
building and went to the entrance. There, standing behind a counter, was
RH’s wife, and another woman I did not know. She seemed surprised to see
me. I was just starting to ask about where RH was, and then I heard a dog start
to bark. I knew I had to leave. As I started back, I asked for proof
that I had been there. I heard a voice say a woman’s
name, Nancy. I returned to my room and opened my eyes.
I should mention that RH’s wife was a nurse, and I knew that much
at the time and that she sometimes worked nights. But I had only seen her a few
times and did not know much about her. The next day, I mentioned this
experience to RH, thinking it could have been a good hit, but he said that his
wife had not been at work the previous night, but he would mention it to her
anyway. The next day, he told me her reaction to what I had said. She
basically, had turned white as a ghost and refused to talk about it, other than
to say that she had had a dream that night that she had been at work, talking
to her supervisor, Nancy. I drew a picture of the layout of the spot I had
seen her and asked RH to see if any of it matched where she had been. She
glanced at it but refused to tell him anything else. She was a bit freaked
out. This went against what she believed to be possible, and she would not
even discuss it with him, let alone me.
Levitating a table?
Sometime later, RH became a Christian. In one of my last letters
to him, I described how I had been taking a class at a spiritual church here
with JB, my roommate PM, and an old roommate B. In part of this class, we were
asked to spiritually levitate a table. We stood around a standard card
table that we all witnessed being brought into the room and set up. We all
had our fingertips on the table. We concentrated on it lifting. After a
time of this, it started rocking. Eventually, it tilted up so only one leg was
on the ground, and it started to rotate. In rotating with it, some of the
contacts with the tabletop were momentarily lost, but it kept on spinning. Then
it appeared to be totally off the ground, and still spinning us around with
it. For this to have been faked, we all would have had to have been in on
it. There is no way any one of us alone could have lifted that thing, and made
it do what it did. We finally lost contact enough, that it fell over. I told RH
about that experience, and even though he had seemed very open to this sort of
thing before, he could not deal with this now. He sent one letter saying I
had been tricked. I sent one back telling him how it had been and how hard it
would have been for any one of us to do on our own, or that it would have taken
us all to be in on the trick. He never responded to that, and I lost track of
him after that. I mention this just to illustrate how things can change. I
think at this point, he would have denied any of our other experiments had ever
happened, or if they had happened, we were being deceived somehow about what we
thought had happened during them.
To be continued
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